Endlessly haunted

The weird thing about Kurt Cobain is that he was at some point a practising Christian but ended up turning his back on God so badly he regularly made a habit out of mocking him (I do have a desire to deliberately sin, but when I do it often backfires). Surely he became a fairly successful musician thereafter but if he did make a deal with the Devil, it didn’t go well for him and ultimately he killed himself. There were times I prayed to the Devil but eventually a cat got sick and two dogs died, this event got me into praying for a cousin to quit her interest in black magic and to cope with her admitting into this thing whenever she felt bad. Admitting I kind of offload or project my problems onto her whenever I pray for her, to keep myself from being too triggered and offended by my past actions, it’s kind of habitual as of late. And there were instances where I got mad at God whenever bad things happen, to the point of losing my faith and that really hurt my feelings a lot.

I wonder if Kurt Cobain underwent something similar at some point, but one where he’s unable to get over this for long. Or at least work to learn to make peace with God, however difficult it tends to be (as it is with me). If I’m not mistaken Mr Cobain didn’t take to his parents’ divorce well and it did negatively affect his mental health, to the point where he might have unresolved trauma. I remember somebody on Reddit saying my struggle to forgive stems from being so traumatised that I really need to heal from this to truly overcome these vices of mine, since they said that these are surface level and God’s interested in healing the longterm hurts I’ve sustained from being abused so often in life. That might explain why I strive to control the outcome to keep losses from happening, even when they’r not always successful as it is with me before sometimes due to my own shortcomings. It’s kind of hard to trust God when you’ve been made helpless and hopeless for so long, that you have this feeling he’ll hurt you or abandon you when something bad happens. I even think Cobain likely had unresolved trauma, but one where he seemed unable to bother trying to get over it.

Despite having a lot of chart-topping songs that get a good amount of airplay (and streams as of late), he never seemed truly happy in life due to his own unresolved issues, that he seemed truly unable to get over the hurt he’s endured. The bullying he faced, his parents divorcing, even having work stress from time to time. He never seemed happy and doing drugs seem to be one other way to cope with it, it’s like having a cousin who turns to porn to calm herself down. She is happy when she’s happy, but when she’s angry she turns to porn to stop this. It’s not a good coping mechanism but if she had been socialised to try not giving into negative feelings, it would be hard hiding a healthier coping mechanism that turning to porn seems like doing the lesser evil in a weird way, even if all sins are bad in God’s eye. It’s no different with Cobain having done drugs at various points, that it seems to be the lesser evil to admitting his actual problems to people. If because admitting it is kind of shameful, like the time I got mad at somebody for disliking cats that I obsessed over abused dogs instead.

I got over this but these images haunt me to no end and it gets me to praying to this cousin to stop stoning dogs and to cope with her admitting she abuses dogs to calm down, but this also implies she might have another bad coping mechanism when dealing with anger (the whole be angry and don’t sin thing). That without a healthier outlet to express it, she turns to one bad coping mechanism after another. If she doesn’t bully people, she abuses dogs. If she doesn’t abuse dogs, she reads smut instead. She might have gotten into trouble with her late or former husband for abusing dogs whenever she gets angry (the whole ‘sin/vice finds you out’), that she lost him due to being a massive pervert (as it still counts as infidelity in a way). Realistically Cobain would’ve still struggled with sin, but would actively strive to repent and do better, even if his attempts might backfire in ways he never anticipated (as it is with me before in an effort to not be proud, but missing a sermon due to my anger). In some sense, he might be a mirror image of not only myself, but also my cousin.

In the sense of being fairly successful with a family, but internally suffering so much that they both have bad coping mechanisms to deal with it. Cobain does this with drugs and blasphemy, my cousin with dog abuse, bullying and porn. None of them are healthy, but this point out to struggles with their own emotions that make it harder for them to find a healthier way of dealing with them at all, because they weren’t taught to deal with it in a better way and that these are the only options they knew, even when alternatives are possible. That doesn’t necessarily mean my cousin’s always this bad, she likely strives to be better but is in some kind of stronghold due to her pain that she likely knows and is coming to terms with, though it’s also something she struggles being honest about. If because the things she does in private are really shameful and shocking, like kicking the family dog to calm down, or reading porn and bullying people to do the same thing, despite being told by her late or former husband to quit doing any or all of them. These are coping mechanisms when dealing with the anger and stress that gets built up in her, but the way she vents them out leaves much to be desired.

Or Cobain for another matter where it seems he’s unable to get over the trauma that haunted him for years, that instead of striving to do better and even becoming open to better options, he doubled down on making depressing songs and blaspheming God that he never truly escaped the pain he endured for years.

California starves

There’s somebody urging people to pray for those living in California to be saved, as well as having to stock up on available food supplies as California might face both a serious drought and famine, to the extent that it’s going to affect certain products and byproducts. This includes almonds which are currently mostly grown in America and more specifically in California, that if such a natural disaster were to destroy Californian farms, then either one must stock up the remaining almond milk cartons and almond chocolate bars in their refrigerators and pantries, turn to more stable substitutes like macademia chocolate bars and soy milk cartons instead, or even pray that such almond farming would be allocated to other countries like Iran instead. If such an earthquake were to destroy California for its sins, that it would be wiser to pray for other people (family members, friends and even celebrities) to bother evacuating the place before it gets destroyed at all.

I have done this before to my own family members, as well as organisations and celebrities, to leave California before the going gets unnecessarily tougher than it should be. Especially if they happen to either live or work there, that they would need to leave in order to survive in any way that’s possible. Let’s us Jane’s Addiction as an example and this sounds really odd given one of their members was in a band whose album used an Aleister Crowley related symbol for their first album, but even if they do bad things every now and then you might have to pray for them (or even other people you hate, I kind of struggle with this due to trauma). Pray that they repent and turn to God for as long as they live for now, pray that they read the Bible and attend church to listen to sermons there. Pray that they and their families turn to God and move elsewhere for safety, it could also be done to other celebrities whether if you like them or not. Let’s not forget that Jane’s Addiction were part of a generation of 1990s rock bands that had something of an alternative sound, hence the moniker of alternative rock and one of its members was really into 1980s punk music before.

It would take time for the Jane’s Addiction members to get used to living in another country for good, but if it means being safe from harm should an earthquake ever come to California, that going past the border for safety and protection would be their best chance at survival. As for almond farming one would have to wonder what could be a safe spot to cultivate almonds with, now that California’s going to get seriously hit by an earthquake sooner than ever. It might as well come to full circle if it becomes more feasible to do almond farming in countries like Iran, Turkey, Syria and Lebanon, where these were first domesticted in there. Even some of their own locales have climate favourable for almond farming that it becomes more practical to do this then, if not almonds then countries with warmer, more moist climates like the Philippines, Malaysia, Indonesia and Vietnam would have no other choice but to cultivate macadamia nuts in their place instead. The flavours aren’t exact but if they provide a similarly nutty quality to chocolate bars, then they would do and might fare well in our tropical climates.

African countries like Ghana, Nigeria, Rwanda, Kenya and Uganda might follow our example, but if almond farming shifts production to their more northernly neighbours like Morocco and Tunisia, then they’ll still get their almond chocolates after all but in a new way. Even then the physiogeographical destruction of America (and the whole North American landmass) would reroute farming from then on, where if it’s no longer feasible to farm or cultivate crops in America at least in the short-term, then production would have to move elsewhere and others would have to stock up food supplies in their pantries and refrigerators should such a natural disaster happen in the very near future. One might wonder if other crops like soybeans and macadamia nuts might prove resilient to such a natural disaster this way and production of these two could easily be allocated to East Asia instead, where it would help boost local livelihoods from then on. Goya might have to replace the almonds with macadamias in its chocolate bars instead, the flavour wouldn’t be the same but it still imparts a nutty character to said chocolate.

Logically it might be more practical to make an entire industry out of macadamia milk in countries like Indonesia, the Philippines, Vietnam and Malaysia, since this is a crop that can grow reasonbly well in these countries’ climates and easier to import within East Asia itself. With a destroyed North American landmass that it would be really hard to import almonds from then on, that it would have to be offshored to African and West Asian countries instead from then on. If it becomes feasible to even do almond farming in Kazakhstan, Turkmenistan, Tajikistan and Kyrgyzstan, then these are where both Goya and Meiji would be getting their almonds from then on. It’s been speculated that a certain area in Central Asia might be the fabled Biblical Garden of Eden after all, though it’s not the case anymore due to desertification but when America gets seriously hit by such a monstrous earthquake that almond farming would have to be offshored to where these crops were first domesticated in. It’s still horrifying to think that America has everything it takes to become the ultimate superpower, yet it’s prophesised to be brought down by its enemies that it could also become the ultimate failed state.

One that’s going to morph into a proper dictatorship, even though it’s been suspected whenever Trump’s around at all, but America becoming a copy of Nazi Germany but with a much worse economy is terrifying yet also not too far-fetched given its role as Mystery Babylon, the country that corrupts the entire world with its filth and will be brought down by its enemies and God himself. California seems like a fun state to be in, pardon the pun, because it’s got land amenable to farming and the showbiz industry, but it’s also a kind of Hell on earth if it weren’t for a porn industry coexisting with the regular showbiz industry. And these two coexist with a Christian organisation known as Cru, which makes for a really embarassing association at times. Given there’s talk of America being the current headquarters of the Devil on earth that if Cameroon’s described as Africa in miniature, then America can also be described as Hell in miniature too. Even world-famous cities like Los Angeles (which should be called Los Demonios as demons are really fallen angels) and New York have a hellish quality to them, though Las Vegas would be a pretty close call as are San Francisco, Miami and wait for it, Seattle.

That’s actually less surprising in hindsight as one of the first sexualised restaurant chains (Hooters) came from Seattle, as well as arguably bands like Nirvana because Kurt Cobain was so anti-God that he even had the audacity to blaspheme him and so did his contemporary Chris Cornell from Soundgarden. Seattle’s best known son Bill Gates had an affair with one of his employees, looking back I listened to a sermon that despite his habit of setting up charities he’s not a good person. His act of marital infidelity/adultery confirmed this in a way, since it’s one of the things forbidden in the Ten Commandments. It’s even sadder still that Kurt Cobain was briefly a Christian himself when he was with a friend before, as if he came to reject God so vehemently that he met his end the way Anaias and Sapphira did. I’ve done something similar before multiple times over, well in a misguided attempt to keep calm, and it didn’t go well for me either. There’s somebody who said something similar but with Michael Jordan, the basketball player, because his mother’s also a Christian and has been praying for him to come back to God. But since he keeps on rejecting him that he too would meet his own untimely demise.

So America would get judged for things like bringing out so many abominations on this planet as to warrant ending as a nation-state for good, before truly disappearing from the planet forever.

Smells like reprobate spirit

Here’s somebody prophesising that Seattle will actually get nuked by Russia, which is one of those cities in the Pacific Northwest. This is something specific to the North American continent where it’s characterised by a climate comparable to parts of Europe as well as having a kind of cultural character that’s open to anything kind of politically leftist, it should also be noted that Seattle is the city that begat the likes of grunge rock music and Microsoft. The latter is the one that gives us the most commonly used operating system, though China’s Huawei might introduce something that wouldn’t just preserve things from whatever Microsoft’s browsers and the like had (for want of a better phrasing) but also improve on it significantly. Like if you use your browser from a previous OS, Huawei’s own Windows might preserve all the websites you go there (your bookmarks as well) and so on.

A case of the pupil becoming better than their teacher, bluer than blue and gladder than glad. One might wonder if either China’s Huawei or perhaps Russia’s Ucoz might introduce something that improves on other existing American technologies like web browsers for instance, where Huawei might introduce something like Microsoft Edge but better. Russia’s Ucoz (or China’s own versions) might improve on existing software needed to make websites more easily with to the point of getting popularised all over the world and becoming the new world standard in a way, an even more telling sign is when both China and Russia introduce softwares that help preserve bookmarks from a previous browser and operating system when updating the computer or changing to another operating system at all. Which is practically what I said before, wherein China and Russia improve on the technologies America introduced.

In the same way America improved on the technologies countries like France introduced, especially when it comes to something like animation. Then we get to Seattle’s other best known export as first introduced in the 1980s and 1990s, you may know this as grunge and this is best typified by the likes of Nirvana, Soundgarden and Pearl Jam. Although Pearl Jam might not be any better in some or similar regards either, but being more familiar with the former two both of them are no strangers to blaspheming God at all. To the point of mocking the crucification of Jesus Christ, don’t be deceived as you don’t God without not getting away with it. Which is the crux of this person’s prophecy and whilst this isn’t even unique to these bands alone, but being well-around around the world carries a weighty (ir)responsibility that Seattle bears and wrought onto the world.

(Similar things can be said of Nine Inch Nails too, though Trent Reznor might not have come from Seattle or even the general Pacific Northwest himself and will get punished for the same thing. Maybe he already did when he developed a drug addiction after the release of Closer’s music video.)

Before grunge it could be said that the best-known musician to emerge from Seattle was Jimi Hendrix and he does similarly gritty-sounding music, though both the physiogeographical and socioeconomic conditions has what made Seattle beget grunge is more specific. In addition to being kind of grey and remote, for a time being it wasn’t that prosperous so bands would spent time improving and playing at home. That and developing a peculiar sound and mentality that reflects on the circumstances they came from, but since grunge also means dirt and the Bible also likens spiritual defilement to dirt. So it befits that bands like Soundgarden and Nirvana also churn out filth, especially something of the spiritual variety. Kurt Cobain was even so angry at God at to blaspheme him repeatedly, though it could also be said that he was deeply traumatised by his parents’ divorce that it’s a wound that’s never healed.

(Somebody said that my issues with unforgiveness might stem from the unhealed wounds of trauma, so this might explain why I have recurring issues with it and the like.)

There’s a video somewhere online where somebody insinuated that they saw Kurt Cobain in hell or something, admittedly I’ve gotten mad at God for being able to let a pet live as this happened to me before something like that since I didn’t want her to die at the time. Kurt Cobain could’ve eventually been reconciled to God at some point, but from rejecting him so much that he ended up killing himself eventually. Although it could be said that Nirvana’s legacy continues in a tangible way as one member from this band went on to form Foo Fighters, but since he admitted to having been in an affair with another woman that perhaps Nirvana’s own legacy is more questionable than one realises. It should be noted that Soundgarden’s very own Chris Cornell also killed himself, prompting Chester Bennington to do the same thing, that it seems Seattle’s up to no good in a way.

A kind of Sodom and Gomorrah where evil or embarassment hides behind a cool veneer, I remember this sermon where somebody said that even if Bill Gates does good things he’s not necessarily a (consistently) good person behind closed doors. Eventually it turned out he too had an affair with another woman, there’s also another statement by someone else that he’s actually really evil. Seattle might not seem like the go-for American city of sin at first when compared to Los Angeles and New York, but if you look hard enough it’s also got its own vices that it popularises onto the world. Another one would be Hooters where workers for that restaurant dress provocatively and then get sexually harassed for it, that it does make one wonder why would a country like America even popularise this thing to begin with. Even if countries like Japan aren’t without their own issues with sexual harassment as well, but America’s case is more peculiar.

In the sense that America proclaims itself to be a Christian country, yet it also continues to do much to the contrary without collectively trying to better itself that it’s pointless (this also goes for the Philippines too as what many preachers have pointed out). It’s kind of surreal to think that the nation that has some of the most prominent and widely distributed Christian ministries today also widely distributes and popularises filth like porn magazines and porn films, it’s a house divided and so double-minded as to get unstable over time. Hooters and arguably grunge bands like Nirvana and Soundgarden are no different either, with the latter two they even get international airplay in places like Mexico and the Philippines. Seattle still seems like an unlikely target of God’s ire the way Los Angeles and New York are, but still warranting this as it’s really no better either. To the point where you’d have to get out in time.

Or before that as Seattle will hit by Russian nuclear bombs five times, enough to wipe out people in an instant. Seattle will be terribly irradiated when this happens, it should be noted that North America faces Russia to its west. As soon as Russia takes back Alaska, it will bomb the Pacific Northwest. It will nuke cities like Portland, Seattle and Aberdeen, America will be so terribly irradiated that the whole world plunges into a kind of nuclear winter lasting for years. A kind of global cooling happens, as a result of the most disastrous world war to ever be unleashed. There would be so many casualties that makes the previous World War seem like child’s play, per another woman’s wording of the same prophetic vision given to Emmanuel Minos before he passed away. Whilst WWII is the first time nuclear bombs were ever carried out in combat, WWIII’s usage of the same would be more widespread.

This is because there were really only two nuclear bombs that got detonated in just two Japanese cities, WWIII’s use of nuclear warfare happens on multiple sites like Moscow, New York and Minneapolis. Living conditions will worsen to the point where Americans may even eat their own children and fur kids alike, America might even cease to exist as a nation-state due to its own sins. Before this, America may invade Iran very soon. This further exacerbates tensions between America and West Asia, to the extent that they will come to ally more with Russia from then on. America will be wiped off from the planet in both ways (physiogeographically and culturally) because it is the highest sinner, the most arrogant nation-state to ever exist in recent memory. Even if it were possible for America to remain in some manner, its influence would still get undone as it already is elsewhere.

It’s a kind of befitting coincidence that the emergence and popularisation of grunge music coincided with the start of America as either the world’s only superpower or a true hyperpower if there ever was one at all, or for another matter Microsoft since it also comes from Seattle. There are also prophecies of Florida getting destroyed big time, very much where the Backstreet Boys started out there and will also get judged themselves along with the entire state. Another musical phenomenon from America to emerge when America was the unchallenged superpower in the 1990s and 2000s, with many more scandals revolving around them that the next ones will arrive swiftly. Not just with the rape accusations but also accusations of adultery behind all their wives’ backs, human trafficking and involvement in snuff videos that it seem this band’s worse than they think of themselves as. much worse than fans would realise.

In a sense they are also symptomatic of America’s duplicity, both as missionary and corrupter of people. As much as I have had nostalgia for the 1990s and early 2000s, it was also a decade where America/Mystery Babylon truly reigned supreme. The most evil country and civilisation at this point in time, spewing good and evil at the same time. Utterly evil, worthy of destruction and judgement.

Parking in excess

The odd thing about Linkin Park and Chester Bennington’s suicide in hindsight is that it gives me an idea of what and how other people felt about INXS and Michael Hutchence. After these bands are famous and INXS was big in its day with a lead singer who committed suicide nearly a score before Bennington did the same. (You could say similar things about Nirvana and Joy Division if you replace Foo Fighters with New Order.)

It wouldn’t matter how charismatic they appear to be, they’re still human struggling with serious problems that not even they themselves can help it. (I get the impression that Hutchence faced problems similar to what Bennington went through.) The similarities aren’t exact with INXS being generally lighter than Linkin Park or that Bennington’s just more open about his problems that Hutchence is/was.

But the fact that they wrote rather suicidal songs (same for Kurt Cobain and Ian Curtis) should indicate that they’re going through a lot of misfortune. The more I think about it, the more I feel Linkin Park’s our generation’s INXS.