I always found her ugly
Her pallor disgusts her
But I felt sorry when
Her house got burnt
Giving her a new one
Then my goat got killed
She gave me another one
And I thanked her for it.
Month: December 2016
Disturbing daydream
She feigned loyalty to her
Husband but admits being
Miserable though never open
Daydreaming of pretty boys
Till it got the better of her
Hiding her truest problem
Devolving into perversion
Breaking up with him
Seeking him again but
Gets God instead.
Reformed adulteress
She’s married with two boys
But often daydreamed of
Somebody else, she
Feigned being in love
And loyal to her husband
But her fantasy angered
Him and had to stop
Looking to God instead.
No need for diversion
She used to daydream a lot
She tried to distract herself
Attracted to something
Until it broke things up
No need for diversion
She becomes responsible.
No longer daydreaming
They try to be as happy
As possible, not wanting
To be reminded of those
Until they lost somebody
They opened up and
Began showing their
True emotions about it.
Shattered fantasy
She always knew she had issues
But hid them proficiently
Like they’re invisible but
Even she didn’t want
To be reminded until
It tore her relationship
Apart and came to God
To mend everything for her.
Some new method
Drowning myself in fantasy
Don’t want to be sad
Even if I do cry at times
Have to be strong but
I know I’m very weak
I have to get myself out
By doing something else.
Immersion in something
I feel like I trapped myself
I wanted to be happy
Don’t want to be reminded
Don’t want to appear sad
Hiding my feelings
Immersing myself
In denial till I snap.
Diversion’s no good
I didn’t want to appear sad
I wanted to be happy
Don’t want to be reminded
Of the bad times as I get
Hurt, I do cry but I’m hardly
Open about my emotions
But diversion’s no good.
Detached
So many problems but
Never open about it
Fear of vulnerability
Cracking up but
Hiding by diverting
Oneself to the
Point of detachment
But it falls apart.
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