Christian music

For a while in 2018, I didn’t like listening to Christian music and I got anxious whenever I listened to it so I went to Lola’s church and listened to choral music there. (There was a time in that church where there were people playing organ, piano and guitars there and in Aunt Crisma’s church, there was a jazz choir there too.)

In July 2020, I started listening to a lot of Christian music though I still have my anxieties and I developed a thing for choral music, as much as I listened to Christmas songs and choir songs just the same. My faith grew, even though my anxiety’s still intense but I did listen to some Christian music and I do like listening to Christmas and choir songs a lot.

Losing items and playing music

–I wanted to play music, I did play music with the keyboard and got a violin because I wanted to play it (I did attend a symphony) and later on, I tried singing and drumming but I don’t have the talent to play music whereas I attended choir practises with my siblings (who have the talent, they compose music, play the guitar and piano).

–I have a notorious habit of losing things, where I even lost favourite books before and destroyed some of them. I still want to look for them, but for now I look for the closest things to them online.

Discriminatory rockism

I do think rockism’s rather discriminatory in the sense that its standards don’t apply easily to other genres, for instance choirs are manufactured by churches, they wear coordinated outfits, they play roles and don’t right their own songs but they’re not that commercial either whereas Nickelback do right its own songs but also very commercial.

Not to mention, it doesn’t apply well to musicals where singers are also manufactured, play roles and don’t write their own songs either (to the point where pop music’s theatricality stems from choirs and plays that may not always sit well with rockism) and actually folk music where people also don’t write their own songs either.

Rap music doesn’t fit the bill either, even if it’s not without its own problems but it does complicate matters (rappers do write their own songs, but they don’t play instruments in the traditional sense) that I feel rockism did shoot itself in the foot.

Gay men and divas

Whilst not all gay men necessarily identify with nor like divas, it’s not uncommon for them to support divas a lot and it’s been said, with regards to Judy Garland, that gays do identify with them out of subversiveness or in the context where gay men in the media are depicted as stereotypes, they identify more with divas as they feel much less stereotypical.

It’s also more subversive in the sense that disco and pop music aren’t that well-received in rockist circles, so it seems gay men are willing to put up with those kinds of music as it resonates with them on some level along with the pop divas’ lives. To be fair, those divas do write their own songs and play instruments.

But the fandom’s subversive in the sense of going against rockist expectations, like Judy Garland’s manufactured into an actress but her pain and struggles are authentic in ways that turn rockist expectations on their heads. (It doesn’t help that rockism does risk being discriminatory, especially to genres that don’t fit expectations.)

That and the air of campiness to pop divas does appeal to gay men in ways that I feel rockism has failed them many times over, hence why I think rockism’s discriminatory.

Radiohead and Coldplay

As my sibling said, both of them started out at the same time and had the same sound with Coldplay admitting to being influenced by Radiohead (this could’ve been more evident in the latter’s earlier records, given Coldplay outgrew it in later years). Coldplay went for pop rock, as Radiohead went for a more experimental sound.

Bear in mind that if Coldplay admitted to being influenced by Radiohead at some point or another, it’s going to be evident in the earlier records where the comparisons to Radiohead were stronger and still’s so to some extent today. For another matter, the Australian band Silverchair’s compared to Nirvana and Hanson.

Actually in my opinion, to the point where Silverchair’s practically Hanson with more male fans or Nirvana-lite at some point. In my opinion, Coldplay’s a fine band in its own right but Radiohead tends to attract dieheard rockists that explains why Radiohead’s on a high pedestal.

That’s my impression despite not listening to the latter, if at all, due to my hazy memories perhaps other than Thom Yorke dancing among other things having heard of Coldplay more.

In fairness

In fairness to cat and dog owners, there are churches that do welcome or have those animals for good reasons like guiding the blind, hunting vermin and guarding the place which’s also the case with Christian monasteries. To be fair to sports fans, there are Christian athletes out there and there are nuns who play sports.

To the childless, there are a lot of childless Christians and biblical characters out there to make you feel less left out that you are blessed or loved. To those who love animation and comics, there are Christian stories and Christians doing comics and animation out there.

Or for another matter, Christian rappers, rockers and musicians in general.

Whatever happened to him

There are celebrities who do indulge in the occult just as there those who snap out of it at any time (becoming Christians and stuff), but I feel David Bowie and a few others might be some of the more blatantly Faustinian musicians to date. As in their interests in the occult are well-known even outside of Christian circles as to warrant a whole book or two about the subject matter.

Whilst not all musicians are necessarily into the occult, some are Christians and some become Christians themselves but I feel Bowie and his ilk are good case studies of musicians having a blatantly Faustinian pact to get rich and famous without being saved at any point. Like how Bowie started out as a humble musician but when he went occult, he got big and famous.

So arrogant as to have sex with younger girls and to cheat on one of his wives, that I feel his obsession with the occult’s well-known and well-studied. Same with other musicians, even if not all of them do this.